windows

my thoughts: i woke up fairly sick this morning, with chills and a fever, and felt trapped in my house. i really wanted to open all the windows and let some fresh air in, but i was presented with a problem. there are only three in windows in my apartment: one in each of the bedrooms, and then the sliding glass door. i got up, opened the curtains and opened the window in my room. for some reason, i expected a blast of fresh, clean air, but i was greeted with the routine view of my neighbor's apartment and a lack of breeze. i studied abroad in spain almost a year ago, and i had the most beautiful view of a soccer field, leading into more apartments and finally the beautiful bay of biscay. i didn't really realize how much i took that view for granted until i returned to the united states. most apartment windows only offer a view of a parking lot, or the other side of some apartment. i live on the third floor, but i still don't see anything worth looking at. am i'm being pessimistic? i would say no; i just long for what i can't have: a window with a nice view and a clean breeze. what can i do about this lack of a view? i've made the most of it. if i lay on my bed just right, i can see the sun set in the evening. i can also see two pretty trees that grow in the parking lot near my window. it's the small things like this that make me glad i don't live in a humongous city with no trees and smog that covers the sun. i'm grateful for what i have and where i am now. it just helps me to dream big - when i'm done with college, i want to move to a place where i can have a full view of something beautiful, and god-made, instead of staring at a wall when i open my curtains.

why i chose this photo: i wish i could see this every day. no matter how lonely i was or how stressed out i was from all of my spanish homework. i could look over miles of spanish land and feel invincible. that feeling of invincibility keeps me going, even when i feel that the world is taking over.

question: what do you see when you look out your window? what is beautiful? ugly? good? bad? how do you view things from the inside out?

inspiration: "even if you aren't in the most ideal situation, find one or two small things that are great, and that will keep you going."